All Your Dreams Won't Come True

      At a certain point you realize that though you are still relatively young you will not get everything in life that you hoped you would achieve. Its not that you won't be  happy but all of your dreams won't come true. When you finally realize this its quite humbling. Its kind of like facing mortality.  This does not mean one should not reach for the stars, but there comes a point when you realize that life is never perfect and neither is yours.
    Alas all is not lost . For every lost dream there is someone who has experienced the joys and wonders of this world, just not all of the joys and wonders of this world.

sleep

i normally do not have nightmares. last night was a harrowing exception. though i haven't been obsessing about 9/11 lately i managed to have a terrorism nightmare. the scene of the nightmare was union square. several planes landed in union square while elsewhere in manhattan there were beheadings. this nightmare seemed too real. i woke up from the nightmare to find myself silently screaming. it was so-ooo--ooo unsettling. i turned the light on in my room for a little bit and after waking .
it was definitely one of those dreams you would not wish to come true.

status quo

life is really weird. for years things can be the same . nothing changes. ever. and then suddenly after many years of sameness it changes. poof! just like that. the change isn't always bad change , but its change. this is why one has to be flexible. things may seem like they will never change , but that do change . eventually. i guess this could count as a proof that one can actually be hopeful about achieving ones hopes, dreams and goals.