Wednesday, April 19, 2017

Pessach Medley with Micha Gamerman (Official Animation Video)

I know Pesach is over, but I wasn't able to post this earlier....Its just the cutest.

Friday, April 14, 2017


     I often hold on to momentos too long thinking they will hold the memory of someone in my life. The longer I hold on to that thing the less it contains the memory of it's former owner and the more it becomes just a thing. My aunt had lived in my grandmother's house for years after my grandmother had passed away . For a long time I felt her presence there and would think that my grandmother would join us in the family room at any minute. After a long while it just became a house and though the house still had the same musty smell that it had when my grandmother lived there I no longer expected to see her pop into her home. When I see pictures of her cheerful smiling face I still miss her but now her memory lives in my heart not in her house   or her things.

Monday, April 10, 2017

Tuesday, March 28, 2017


 Being off of work due to a shoulder injury can be a challenge for a creative person. You  can't crochet ,knit, or use a camera (perhaps just cellphone photos). One thing that I have been able to enjoy is cooking.Though one armed cooking can be a challenge its still doable. Cooking can be creative and its a necessity. I also wanted to try not to gain a ton of weight.One website that I have become obsessed with is mind over munch. This website includes many few ingredient healthy and budget friendly ingredients.The website is kosher consumer  friendly because there are lots of vegan and vegetarian options and substitutions listed in the recipes. I've discovered black bean brownies,lentil dishes and veggie burger recipes to name a few. Cooking has been a challenge for me lately, and it has been nice to spice it up with some fun and nutritious recipes
    As a bonus.I have not gained wait since my injury.

Sunday, March 19, 2017

Twinsters 2015

   This is the story of twins separated at birth that didn't even know that the other existed until one saw the other on a video posted on facebook. What is truly amazing about this story is that though both young women are glad to have found one another they don't necessarily wish that they grew up together they are more concerned with moving forward.The full film is on YouTube and I'm posting it here.

Friday, March 10, 2017

Between a rock and a headstone

Between a rock and a headstone: Ayel Morgenstern, a kindergarten student in Boca Raton, Fla., and her family were reading reports of the vandalism at Chesed Shel Emeth Cemetery…This is an amazing story . A 6 year old decides to paint 150 or so  rocks for the 150 or so headstones that were desecrated in St. Louis where her great grandmother was buried. In turn the funeral home gathered students from the three Jewish day schools in St. Louis representing all levels of Jewish observance to place the stones at the cemetery. So much unity and love has been created after an event that was so heinous.

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

The Bar Mitzvah Project

     A big tradition among reform  and conservative Jews is their bar/bat  mitzvah project. Often when I read about their mitzvah projects I wonder if a kid could do the listed project on their own. Among some of the projects that I admire because it looks like the kid could really do them is of a kid who with his mom worked at a Jewish food pantry for poor people, a girl who with her friends made quilts and then donated them to the poor. My new favorite project is of a boy named Ari Blumberg in Dallas who made and  donated special toiletry bags to a hospital  for chemo patients. I saw this posted on facebook by a woman who was the recipient of one of these bags. This is a simple act that generated so much joy .
     Of course this is the essense of life. Its not just the grand gestures that makes the world a better place. Its the little things that when we choose to do them the world becomes a kinder space.

Monday, February 27, 2017

FNN: VP Pence Speaks Against Anti-Semitism During Visit to Vandalized Je...

   Vice President Pence visited Chesed Shel Emes cemetery in St. Louis last Wednesday when many St.Louisans went to help clean up the vandalized cemetery. Governor Greitens who is the first Jewish governor was also there. The vice president spoke and helped clean up the cemetery.  This act was so comforting and significant to me. The vandalism put me in a state of shock and sadness. It was as though the vice president was coming for a shiva call for a cemetery that housed so many bodies of people who had loved the United States and had been so grateful to be here.The vice president's word's denounced such a heinous act . I have great hakaras hatov for Vice President Pence for showing up in our time of need.
    Unfortunately another Jewish cemetery was descecrated in the same fashion this weekend in Philedelphia. We Jews have our work cut out for us to fight anti-semitism. Its good to know that the vice president is on our side.

Chesed Shel Emes

    Last week there was a horrific act of vandalism at the Chesed Shel Emes Cemetery in St. Louis.  I have grandparents, great grandparents and great -great grandparents buried there as well as many aunts and uncles. Chesed Shel Emes Cemetery was established in the late 1800's.  My great-great grandparents were buried there 1919-1920. When I heard that nearly 200 headstones were knocked over I felt like the wind was knocked out of me.When  I heard the newscaster say that they weren't yet calling it a hate crime was when I was certain that it was. Headstones are made of STONE. Stones are VERY heavy. One stone overturned could be a prank, not over  100 overturned.
     Today in Philadelphia another Jewish cemetery was vandalized in the same way. My heart goes out to those whose loved ones are buried there.
     They will find out who committed these crimes but its just as frightening to find out who the perpetrator was.It could be a white supremacist , but it could also be a so called leftist. Unfortunately there is no shortage of those who dislike Jews.


     When one has an injury one realizes one isn't as alone as one thought but on the other hand one realizes one is more alone than one would like to be.
      Several years ago an acquaintance of mine had fallen ill. She was single. Fortunately her 82 year old mom was able to help her. After she recovered she told me that she realized how lucky she was that her mom had been around and was  physically able to help her.She also realized that she really needed to find others to be close enough with in the event she needed someones help in the future.After all her mom was 82. At the time I could relate . I was single then I am single now. Of course now I understand this even more.  It takes a village as they say because as independent as a person is and I am fiercely independent,one still NEEDS others. We don't just need people for what they can do for us we need others for what we can share with them. People can be so vulnerable. Its not good to be alone. I think I have had enough alone time to satisfy me for quite some time.

Tuesday, February 14, 2017


     One thing one realizes when one injures an arm is that it takes two arms to give a hug which is really sad because when one is injured one could really use a hug. I  can't give a hug now and I can't really receive one on account of my left shoulder....
      One of the hardest parts of recovery is mastering the art of patience. I am mostly a patient person but when it comes to healing I want it done yesterday. This of course is not how healing works . It takes time and it takes patience. Healing takes time. Even harried  New Yorkers have to wait to heal. Its just the way it works. A person MUST adjust to the situation or one will have a very unhappy several months.
        Fortunately the hardest part is the beginning. I had to get used to using one hand. One doesn't realize how much one uses both hands for so many tasks. Now that its been 3 weeks I have  gotten used to it .  Now that its been three weeks I also know that I am 3 weeks closer to recovery which in itself makes it easier.
         I have also been fortunate to have friends and family who have really been there  for me and are helping me get through this difficult time.
      As of Friday I finally got my focus back. Until then I could not concentrate enough to read a book. Injuries to the body effect the brain as well. No matter how together a person is it takes a little time for ones psyche to adjust.
      I am looking forward to some hugs in the not so distant future as everyday of my recovery continues. My shoulder injury has forced me to slow down which is good.Its just too bad it took fracturing my shoulder to do so.

Thursday, February 9, 2017

Snow Day

     The best part about the snow today is that I have plenty of food and I didn't have to go to work today. Here are a few pictures I took from my window.Love the snow   stripes on my window.

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

The in Between

     I haven't had time off of work like this since my dad passed away almost 7 years ago. Being home due to an injury is different than being off for a  death in the family. I had always hoped I would have extended time off for maternity leave but alas life is full of surprises.
      It took me a little bit to be at peace with my situation. Bone healing takes time and nurturing. As much as I would like it to be healed yesterday I know it takes time.
      My favorite line people spout is to enjoy my time off. I don't miss work but I would not call having a fractured shoulder enjoyable. Its not the worst thing in the world but I would much prefer to have extended time off for a fun reason. Broken bones hurt and make it hard to sleep without waking up a gillion times.  For me an awesome vacation includes good sleeping. I'm also not such a homebody. I like being out and about.
     Its easy to get swallowed up by work responsibilities and forget to nurture one's social life . A shoulder injury is quite a reminder. Being social is important to well being as much as being able to afford one's life. Being social makes life worth living. Right now I'm not really social or working. I am speaking to good friends more often which is something I must continue once I recover. As much as I would like to socialize right now I really need to rest up. When I am all better I will be back on the merry-go-round. Some of my perspective has changed but so much is easier said than  done.

I Spy a Mezuzah

   I am not a football fan but someone posted this on facebook and to see an American commercial with a mezuzah in it is pretty cool

Monday, February 6, 2017


     I am always  amazed by people who love being "the sick one" to get attention. If they aren't really sick they will  invent an ailment. They love attention even if its negative. I am the opposite. I don't want to be ill and I try to do it all without  relying on others. It is important to know when to ask for help but often I am too impatient to wait for others to get their act together so I do things myself. as much as possible. There is a balance between asking for help when one needs it without being overly needy.
   I tend to want to be more self reliant than is necessary but  that isn't all bad. Being motivated to be self reliant is a good motivation to achieve instead of having to be self reliant because everyone has tired of your pity party. I have to learn to cut others slack for not living up to the high standards I have set for myself.


Friday, February 3, 2017

Life, Animated

     I just saw a very uplifting documentary called Life, Animated.. LA is a film about an adorable little boy who is diagnosed with autism at 3 years old. His love for Disney movies was the bridge to communicate with others.
     Though this film is pretty standard kid is autistic family  learns to cope stock, the animation is enchanting. For this alone the journey is worthwhile.

Thursday, February 2, 2017

Stuck in the Past

     Trump is like the early 60's, Hilary is like the late 60's and Obama who created more race riots since 1965 is like the mid 60's. Its 2017. Can't we glamourize a different decade or forge a new path? This one's getting old.

Khaled - C'est la vie (Clip officiel)

   This is a great song. It was remade in Israel a few years ago during the war in Gaza. Its good in every language.

Wednesday, February 1, 2017

Panel on Discuss Monday Night Massacre: Trump Fires Acting AG. Part 3 @A...

    This really cracks me up. Just watch the first two minutes. Basically the clip is trying to say that all he double toothpicks breaks out on shabbos when The Donald can't consult with Jarrod. Who knows if this is true or not but its fun to see them mention shabbos and politics.

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

The Fragility of Life.

 I haven't posted in awhile.  I wasn't sure that I had wanted to share what has been going on with me . Although I have a blog I am a private person. Alas I opted to share.
  A week and a half ago I fell and broke my shoulder. Some  random people helped me off of the street restoring my faith in mankind.
   Having an injury forces a person to slow down and think about life. Aside from resolving to be a better money saver it made me aware of the fact that aside from  my actual paycheck and insurance I don't miss work AT ALL.  I don't even miss my work friends which actually surprised me . Before the accident I longed to work part time but felt it would be hard financially. Now that this has occurred I know that when I return to work it will be part time for awhile before I am able to resume full time. I don't think that wanting to have a break or work part time is why I fell but I do assume it was meant to be that I have a break from work right now and having a shoulder injury was the way it was made to happen.
     Being out of work also helped me realize though its easy to spend too much , its also painless to be thrifty ,
     Though I enjoy living alone, I see how having a roommate could be helpful in this situation.        
    With Hashem's help I will be back to my old self sooner than later. Meanwhile I am catching up on my netflix queue.

Monday, January 16, 2017


One thing I have learned from working is not to talk about politics unless its in a neutral way. This gets tricky because sometimes its hard to figure out what actually is neutral. Most of the time I get it right because I usually don't say something political unless I know it is neutral.
     As it turns out it is more entertaining to be neutral about politics than to have a strong opinion one flaunts all of the time. The only way you really get to hear the other person's views unfiltered is if you actually listen to the other person's views without waiting to share your own divergent ones.
     It really has been quite simple not to share my political views during this election cycle because I did not particularly like either candidate and every evil quip that I heard about either candidate was something I could relate to. I did  not even know who I would vote for until I was in the voting booth with my pen filling out the oval.
      At work its simple not to speak politics because often there is so much diversity that most people know politics is a taboo subject along with religion. I think that people should adopt this attitude in social situations as well. Politics is a tricky subject. Often people think its their way or the highway . Its best to leave one's politics at home when one knows one will be in a social situation. Mostly people have their minds made up. You really aren't going to to change any one's mind.
    I think that its good to have Jewish people on all sides of the political spectrum. Political tides change all of the time and you never know who you might need to help you.
    I haven't heard so much about this topic, except for those on the left who just disparage him, but Jared Kushner having such a close relationship with the future president can be good for the Jews or bad for the Jews . Hopefully it will be good for the Jews .Only time will tell. It is on his shoulders . There never has been an observant Jewish first son in law. I hope that Jared knows how important his actions are and that everyone is watching him twice as much because he is Jewish .
       Ultimately I am hopeful . I really do not have much choice. I was hopeful when other presidents were elected whether I voted for them or not. I do not think that its Armageddon time as those on the left believe , but I don't think that everything is roses and candy either like many on the right believe. Only time will tell.

Sunday, January 15, 2017

Multiculturalism at its Best

     I work in an office with a very diverse cultural environment. It is so diverse that all but two of the "white" people are Jewish.
    After many years of working in a culturally diverse environment one learns to be very careful of what one says about racial differences. Or more accurately one NEVER speaks of anything that could be misconstrued as being racist in any way shape or form. One learns that EVERYONE is bigoted about some group and that darker skinned people analyze their skin tone more than any  white person ever could imagine.
     One also learns that most of the affirmative action multicultural casts get it wrong. When working in an office with as many cultures as the United Nations its more of a matter of fact  than an issue . Of course the office I work in is multi-cultural as happenstance , not because they set out to make it so.
     My thoughts on working in a multi-cultural environment? Its quite nice . One gets to learn a lot about other cultures. Those I work with have learned more about Orthodox Judaism than they ever thought they would.
      The thing is America is very multicultural though sometimes it appears to be just white or black. Its really quite a shame. There really are many cultures in the United States though the media seems to focus on their agendas.

Monday, January 9, 2017


     When one finally sees the light at the end of the tunnel its amazing. It almost seems unreal. There is a shroud of uncertainty thinking of what life afterward  will be like without this thorn,  but I know that it will definitely be better. There is no way it can't be. People say that change can happen in the blink of an eye and then nothing is ever the same again. In this case this change has taken many years to arrive. Relief is finally on the way. I feel better already.


Wednesday, January 4, 2017


     Change is so hard at times. I often want to implement change but don't. Sometimes I feel so in control that I cannot imagine change coming from outside of myself. Sometimes things have seemed the same for so long that it seems that change is impossible . Then boom . Change is delivered to my  doorstep. The change is probably just the push I needed, but a pain in the neck just the same .