Control

     I am feeling like though I do not have a lot of control over what is happening lately that I want to try and find something that I can control . I am really glad that its raining outside today because I had planned to stay in my apartment today except for putting out the garbage and getting my mail. I am grateful for my family and my family of friends who are helping me survive this plague.
      When I broke my shoulder 3 years ago my head went mush and I didn't even have the peace of mind to watch tv . As stressed out I am about the coronavirus I am able to watch tv and read which helps a lot. My arm is healed  and I have been crocheting.  I also have cleaned up my apartment a little bit. I am that bored,
      I am also limiting my news consumption. Its not wise to put one's head in the sand but watching and reading the news 24/7 is not necessary to keep updated. I am trying but not sure how successfully to be okay with the  uncertainty. As much as there is a outline for what may happen with this pandemic , we won't know the future until it happens. With G-d's help things will go better than anticipated. Until then we need to keep on truckin'
   

   

Personal Space

     One of the things I dislike about living in religious Jewish  Brooklyn is the blatant disregard for personal space. It always bothers me how no matter how much I try to  not walk into someone someone always walks into me. For people who claim to be shomer negiah its a little odd.
       During this plague of coronovirus it seems the chassidic and yeshivish have seemed to be the last to adhere to the concept of social distancing which makes sense. The most physically pushy people just can't seem to tamp things down.
        It does suprise me how little regard for personal space people have here.When I broke my shoulder people would just run right into me even when I was wearing a sling . I find the lack of regard for personal space so unrefined and actually so un-Jewish. I am not against physical contact with others , but being bumped into constantly by strangers is unwanted physical contact.
       If the result of the current plague would be that people could get a little closer to my normal state of social distancing physically  it will have all been worth it.
   

Temporarily Closed World

   I do admit I was freaking out about this plague , but now I am beginning to calm down a bit. Its nice to be at home and watch television. I have been catching up on all of the tv shows that I have been meaning to watch  which is a good thing. I am missing being at work just for the human contact. I was at work this week and will be going to work once a week for awhile as they can't afford anything else. I work in the medical field so they are open. Blah. After much freaking out I have decided to risk going to work as I do not want to lose my job.
    The last time I was on house arrest was when I broke my shoulder three years ago. At least this time I am not in physical pain and I am able to enjoy watching television and reading and crocheting. All of the important things in life.
      I am going to miss going to the botanical gardens as they are closed for a little bit but I went the past two Sundays which I am so happy about. I saw the magnolia blossoms and cherry blossoms which are so good for the soul. Hopefully they will reopen soon.

magnolia blossoms

cherry blossoms

Corono Crazy

     As I am writing there is a health crisis in the United States and around the world. After my initial panic I have calmed down. Most people who contract this virus have a very mild case of it and recover. Its really bad if the elderly contract it or if someone with a compromised immune system contracts it. Oh and there isn't a cure or much treatment for it yet. The panic over the epidemic has made panic buy toilet paper to the point no toilet paper could be found. I luckily bought toilet paper last week when I saw a you tube video of two women fighting over toilet paper in a grocery store in Australia. Crazy I know.
     I went to work all week last week . I rode the subway with about half the people who are usually on the subway . It was surreal, but good because for those who had to take public transportation there were less people breathing the air.
      The scariest part of the pandemic is the lack of information that is out there. I think that it is important to be okay with the not knowing no matter how gnawing. Eventually it will be solved, but hopefully sooner than later.