Sameness

     The more time passes the more things stay the same. Things can change in a heartbeat and they can stay the same and the same and the same. The clocks have changed heralding oneg season. The same people are hosting them and the same people are attending. Its like deja vu. Not good, not bad, just the same.
     I feel like I am in endless high school  like  the cast of the movie Grease..... None of the actors in the movie were actually in high school . I really did not like high school either.
     Eventually I will graduate this season of endless summer. Its not without merit, but I will not miss it when it   ends.

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the school that i went to for high school would always show the most graphic holocaust shorts . each year there was one worse than the year before. being the sensitive sort, it would give me nightmares. when i was fifteen i had a dream that when i opened the door to the school bathroom i was
walking into a gas chamber and in my dream i died. prior to having this dream i had always heard that if one dies in one's dream , one died. well folks, i can tell you that b"h this is not true. that was many years ago.
i dont know what the best policy is. showing very graphic holocaust footage is very important, but i dont think the purpose of showing this footage is for teenage girls to have nightly holocaust dreams. there must be some kind of balance. the school that i went to sure did not find it.
at this point in my life i try not watch too many holocaust films . if i do , i start having nightmares that the new york subway trains are cattle cars going to .... well, thats why i cant watch too much holocaust fare.