i dont know where to begin so i will just start here. my father passed away during pesach. he had recently had surgery and even more recently came home from the hospital. he passed away on april 2, which was during pesach. his funeral was last sunday which was still pesach. we couldn't even sit shivah until after pesach. shivah ended today. i have become an expert on death during a jewish holiday which is something i never wanted to be an expert of.
previously when i went to shivah houses and would say "im so sorry for your loss" or just "im so sorry" i would feel as if i wasn't saying enough , but i did not know what more to say. well, turns out that's all someone needs to say. now i know.
the weather in my hometown in the midwest has been beautiful. the day of the funeral was a perfect spring day. it was very comforting. the cemetery looked so peaceful. it exuded rest in peace.
i have tons to write, but have not yet organized my thoughts. this will have to do for now.