powerless blinking

people always say that life can change with the blink of an eye, well as i blink my eyes right now my life seems to always stay the same, and its not for lack of trying . although, on the more positve side some of the things id like not to change, like my rent and weight tend to always change. one thing for sure its life is never what one expects it to be. i thought that id be married with children by this age and now im not as confident that either will happen. perhaps i need to blink a little harder.