i hate weddings

one of my favorite sex and the city episodes was when carrie's shoes were stolen at her friend's apartment when she had to remove them and then she made a registry for herself for her friend to buy her a pair of shoes to replace those that were stolen from her friend's apartment.
i know that if i were married i wouldnt dislike weddings so much, but im not married and as it stands now im finding it hard to imagine it ever happening.
actually, if i ever do find someone to marry , i think that i will skip the big wedding thing. a big wedding is for when one is in one's twenties . i have a friend who got married last year and she was in her mid-thirties. it just wasnt the same as a wedding for someone in their twenties. it didnt seem as joyous, which when i think about it this is quite an odd thought. my mid-thirtysomething friend had more to be happy about at her wedding than some giggly 20 yr old, and yet i felt that the wedding was a boring waste of time. and yes, i do think that my friend is happy. her husband truly seems like one of the good ones. its just that by the time she got married, a wedding isnt the event it used to be to her friends. this is why i would like to get married, but not have a wedding. what for?
also, i know that weddings make people cry. especially single people. it makes them realize how very single they are. look, im very optimistic that every single reader of my blog will one day get married, its just that weddings dont make me have any more or less hope for my own predicament. at a wedding, i think,"good for them" but it doesnt really do anything for my own emunah.
also, a wedding is just alot of hoopla for a friend who might not actually ever speak to me once he or she is married. again, im happy for them, just not as happy as charlotte york might be.
because of my own ambivalence about weddings, i dont want to put others through this either.
i know that i sound really negative, but i think that most singles feel this way, its just that they would never admit it.
happy june, the official kickoff of wedding season?!?