the element of surprise

when i was a little girl i loved surprises. i guess because as a child surprises tended to be good things like a surprise visit by grandma, a surprise birthday party or a surprise gift from a relative who had returned from an exotic vacation.

as an adult surprises are quite different. you get surprised at how much income taxes are each year, how high gas prices have climbed, and of course surprised at how life never seems to turn out the way you might prefer it to. im surprised im still single, im surprised how hard it is to lose weight. im surprised how unattracted i am to many blind dates. what happened to all the good surprises of my youth? did i use up all of the good surprises and now all that is left are the mediocre and bad surprises?

is it that all of the surprises these days are bad or is it that its easier to focus on the bad ones? im not sure. i am sure that i am a realist . i like to know what the deal is . good or bad. sometimes it is possible to consider all of the pros and cons and know what to expect. other times ... well other times it is not. as much as we try to have control over things we really cant because that isn't life. we aren't in control. life is surprise.